I’m a very impatient person. When I start a task, I want to see results immediately. I have a very hard time with small details because they’re so tedious and I just want to get the product or the end result and move on to the next thing. I’m a quick learner when it comes to math, English, etc. and I love that I can pick up on those things so easily, but my expectation of perfection on the first try has oftentimes led to my giving up on things.
A while back I wanted to start exercising more regularly, and I did for a good week or two. But when I wasn’t seeing immediate results, I gave up and decided it wasn’t worth the effort. When I started running in January, I so desperately wanted to run a 5k right off the bat, but I somehow managed to pace myself and keep going. I look at where I am now and it’s amazing how far I’ve come–and it’s all because I didn’t give up.
I got a ukulele for my 13th birthday (which was two years ago) and I took an 8-session class to learn basic chords and whatever. The class wasn’t very helpful and by the end I couldn’t play even a single song, and I felt like it wasn’t worth trying because I would never be able to be as good as, say, the girls on my worship team. I expected immediate results, and when I didn’t see any I gave up. But recently I’ve felt God calling me to be on the worship team. I’ll be honest with you, when I first felt that way I kind of questioned God, like: “Um, God? Don’t you remember how terrible my singing voice is? And I can’t play an instrument to save my life, so how could I ever be on the worship team?” And His answer to that was: “Child, see that ukulele over there in the corner of your bedroom? I gave that to you so you could play for Me. All you have to do is learn how to play it, so you’d better start practicing.”
I started on Wednesday, and by Thursday I could already play “So Will I (100 billion x)” by Hillsong United. On Friday, I learned how to play “Do It Again” by Elevation Worship. Yesterday I learned “Jesus Paid It All,” and now I’m learning “Build My Life” by Housefires. That 8-week class that I thought was so futile was actually preparing me for that call to play on the worship team by teaching me how to strum, how to play chords, and the basic foundation. I thought it was a pretty useless class but now that I’ve found YouTube tutorials I’m learning everything so quickly. God is good, isn’t He?
I feel like I need to just keep pursuing my dreams. I need to remember that Rome wasn’t built in a day, and that if I don’t see immediate results it doesn’t mean that I never will. I stuck with running, and now I can go 2/3 of a mile without stopping. And I know that if I stick with ukulele I’ll eventually be good enough for the worship team.
Rome wasn’t built in a day, so you can’t expect your dreams to come to fruition in a day either. You’ll eventually see the light if you’ll just keep pursuing.