This year (2019) has been amazing so far, and I have seen God do so much and answer so many prayers. It’s been great, and I wouldn’t trade God’s plan for anything. But if I’m being honest, it has also been crazy! Joining the worship team even though I know next to nothing about music was crazy.
I love the “walking on water” metaphor that we get from Peter’s story in Matthew 14. Sometimes God calls us to step out of the “boat”–which is essentially our comfort zone. We have faith in what God says, so we do as we’re told and we step out of the “boat.” We step outside our comfort zones–we apply for the job, we write the book, or we sign-up to volunteer for a church event. And then we miraculously walk on water for a few seconds. But then we realize that we’re walking on water and that that isn’t normal. Suddenly the waves and wind are all we can think about and we’re overwhelmed by the situation “we’ve” gotten “ourselves” into. We begin to question why we ever left the boat in the first place. Does this sound familiar to anyone other than me?
Like I briefly mentioned earlier, my “storm” is the worship team. I knew that that’s what God wanted me to do, so I left my comfort zone and I auditioned for the team. And now I’m on the team–for the rest of the school year. I knew from the very beginning that music is not my specialty or talent, and now that I’ve played ukulele for a few worship services, I’m kind of wondering what God was thinking. I honestly just go up on stage and pray that I don’t sound horrible.
And then I remember that auditioning was God’s idea in the first place. He got me into the “mess” I’m in. It’s His “fault” that I’m stuck on the team. But you know what I love about God? He completes what He starts. “I am sure of this, that He who started a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1:6) What He leads you to, He will help you accomplish. We don’t have to walk on water by ourselves. Hallelujah, amen!
Even when we’re walking in line with God’s will, we can still face waves and wind. There will still be trials. There will be times when it seems too difficult and we will want to give up. But I’ve been learning recently that, sometimes, God sends those waves to keep our eyes on Him! If He led us out of the boat but then it was all smooth walking from then on, wouldn’t we be prone to forget that it was God who helped us get there? When Peter walked on water, He took His eyes off of Jesus and that was when the miracle ended. That’s when he sank.
I know it doesn’t work with the analogy perfectly because it was the waves that actually took Peter’s eyes off of Jesus, but I still want to point it out: God sometimes allows waves (trials) in our life because He wants to remind us that we can’t do it on our own. He wants to remind us that we’re not walking on water because of ourselves–it’s because of Him. He wants to get the glory so He makes sure that we can’t. If we start to get self-confident and self-reliant and look at ourselves, then He allows a trial to remind us that we need Him in order to keep from drowning. It’s not our strength, but His. Again, I know it doesn’t fit perfectly with the story, but it’s true nevertheless. I hope that makes sense.
We shouldn’t be confident completely in ourselves, but we do still need confidence. We have to be confident that we’re doing the right thing by following God and that God will lead us through. Hebrews 10:35-36 says, “So don’t throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you need endurance, so that after you have done God’s will, you may receive what was promised.” When I first auditioned for the team, I was nervous and scared to be sure, but I was also confident that God knew what He was doing. I was confident that I would make the team. But recently I realized that I’ve thrown away my confidence. I stepped out of the boat, but then I focused on the waves instead of Jesus. I need to remember that God knows what He’s doing and keep walking forward in faith so that, just like Hebrews says, I can receive what He has promised me. God is faithful, so I should be too.
So here’s my main point: when God’s calling gets crazy, don’t lose your confidence in God! When your situation is bigger than yourself and beyond your abilities, remember that it’s just God’s way of reminding you that it’s Him you need. Keep your eyes on Jesus, not the trials, and keep your confidence. I got a card at camp this year that says, “Where the will of God leads you, the grace of God will keep you.” God won’t lead you somewhere and then leave you to figure it out on your own! His grace and love will always be there and He will always finish what He starts. You can keep walking on in faith, knowing that God is good!
I hope you all have a good Thursday night (and don’t eat too much candy, for all you trick-or-treaters). I’m so excited for tomorrow as it’s the first day of November–aka NaNoWriMo! I’ll definitely have a post about that sometime soon.
Remember to send it, because our God reigns! God bless y’all! ❤